Thursday, February 28, 2008

Dear virus, please leave. STAT!

Day 5 of illness.

Yes, I know that I promised myself that I'd do an FBC on Wednesday if I still had the fever but I didn't. I'm actually terrified of needles. :) Don't actually mind being pricked, but I will try to find a hundred reason NOT to be pricked before allowing the the procedure to be done on myself.

It's easy to advice people to get their blood checked but when it comes to yourself, it is not an easy task. Haven't u heard, doctors are the worst patients?

I told myself many times yesterday-that my illness is very unlikely to be dengue. The fact that I have a source of fever, i.e. my cough and runny nose, I didn't have the other typical symptoms like joint pain, muscle aches, loss of appetite and vomiting.

Yesterday evening, my mum called, pestering me to get my blood checked. I finally gave in.

My very precious Full blood count result:

Hemoglobin: 12.3
White Cell Count: 7.2
Platelet: 262
Hematocrit: 37.4

Impression: Not suggestive of dengue fever.

The result suggests that I've a viral infection, hence the course of antibiotics that I'm taking now is not justified. Owh well, since I've started the course, might as well just finish it then.
Time to go home now and sleep off my URTI..

Monday, February 25, 2008

Virus alert!

One thing that I hate the most about working in a paeds ward is the daily exposure that I get to virulent pathogens. I can never really understand why I take a long time to recover from a URTI, especially when the source is from one of my patients.
Have you ever heard stories from people, when they say one of their kids get sick and the whole family will follow suit? Common isn't it? I do believe that viruses that may be present in kids are somehow stronger and tougher than in adults.
Back to the story about me...heh.It all started with an itch over my throat on Sunday morning. Thought it would go away but the symptom was followed by muscle aches, especially over my back and throbbing headache. I was stuck in bed the whole day.

I didn't feel any better today morning. Had to force myself to attend the Basic Ultrasound Course in HKL, which I've been looking forward to for weeks. I won't let some virus prevent myself from learning and gaining experieces. This kind of oppurtunity do not just come everyday.

I was coughing and sneezing through out the the end of the day, I was defeated. Once I reached home, I decided to start a course of antibiotics for myself. Well, I know, it's not really indicated in my case, but I do need to hasten my recovery before my call on Wednesday..
I do feel better now after the multiple medications that I've taken. I have made a promise to myself, if my fever does not subside my tomorrow, I'm going to have my blood checked at the nearest hospital.
Dear Virus, please go away!

Sunday, February 24, 2008

What I watched this week

Such a violent movie..Don't think any girl would enjoy watching this one..

Saw this one for Hayden Christensen..They storyline was ok, I assume the book would have been much better. Wished that the Hayden and Rachel Bilson had more chemistry..

Saturday, February 23, 2008

The higher you aim, the harder u'll fall

It has been a rough week. Trying to fight my emotions was not an easy task. I have confided in a few of my close friends and family, they have been very supportive. Failing the same exam for the second time is not something that I'm used to..

Here are some of the words of encouragement that I received. I won't mention any names to respect their privacy..

'The harder the course, the more rewarding the triumph. Be the best in what you do.'

'Hang in there. There's always next time. It's ok if you take a bit longer, the thing is you'll eventually get there. Just dust yourself off, put up your chin and keep going. I'm sure can do it.'

'You are allowed to be sad and not allowed to give up!'

'I failed that exam twice too. Look where I am now'- from my specialist.

'Take it in your stride, ok? Another hurdle to overcome in life. Anggap sebagai dugaan.'

'Third time is the charm.'

'Forget about it for a few months. Try to get some tips from seniors.'

'Kesiannye..hope you feel better soon.'

The next big question now is ' What will be my next step?'

I am still looking hard for the answer and have not made up my mind. Going through the same experience again won't be easy.

At this point I'm just praying hard so that I'd get a hint/sign of what I should do next.

Monday, February 18, 2008

A small peek through my heart

From what I thought would be a good beginning today at a new working environment..turns out to be a bad start for confidence is now shaken.

I won't run into the details at this moment, will place an entry about it once i can think straight and emotionally stable.

Till then.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

On-call & Online

I've just created a new mark in my life..
This is the first time I'm posting a blog entry from a place other than my home.
Am on-call today. The doctor's on call room in my ward is the best in this hospital. We have internet access here, with a speaker for the PC, a television, a fridge, a well functioning air-con and a water heater to shower with. The facilities may not be as good as the other hospitals like Sungai Buloh or Serdang, but I'm happy. I feel so pampered but what the heck. I think I deserve it after working like a dog at Klang GH.
The day has been rather calm so far. Hope it stays this way till 8am tomorrow..

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Another weekend

I have officially finished watching Desperate Housewives Season 3 (I know I'm outdated..). I was inpatient for the sequel, so I surfed through YouTube looking for previews for Season 4. Some of the excerpts from the next season were there. Thank God for technology.

I spent the rest of my day today surfing the net..As usual, I would surf through friendster, taking a peep into other people's lives by going through their photos..Sigh. Everybody seems to be either engaged or married.

My MRCPCH result is due next week, and hence i braved myself to check the official website today. Turns out the exam result page has been updated...I anxiously clicked on the result section..and Nothing. No PDF file came out. Probably they have not completed the update for the page.

Fiuuhhhh.... As much as I wanted to know my result, I just can't take another failure. Even though it's too late to pray for my results now, I really wish that I pass the exam this time around.

Gosh. I've got another long day in Banting tomorrow.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Valentine's Day

Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.

At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

You mean the world to someone.

Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

To the people who I love and the ones out there who have been there when I needed you the most, provided the shoulder for me to cry on and guiding me through obstacles in life..

And also to the ones that has always been there for me, and yet I have failed to realise that you have a wonderful part in my life...

I wish you..


From Nokia to LG to Nokia again

I miss my old phone. Have been using it since I lost my Nokia 3120 at the O&G ward in 2006. It took me a while to get used to the software, but love the phone for its touch screen function, sleek design and shocking colour. Even though it lacked the MMS function and memory card, the phone had served me well.

And again, I lost my phone in the O&G ward. This time not at HTAR, but at Banting Hospital. Searched for it high and low for 2 days, but could not find it. Most likely I misplaced it (I have a tendency of leaving things here and there), or someone took it while I left my lab coat somewhere. Oh well, I took the unfortunate bad event positively and grabbed the opputunity to get a new phone instead.

I bought a Nokia 6500 slide yesterday. Before purchasing it, I have put much thought into the new phone that I planned to buy. I wanted a slide phone, elegant design, good camera and it had to be less than RM1500. A friend of mine, Pravin recommended me this phone and I fell in love with it the instant I saw it.

So far, I've no regrets with this phone. I just love its appearance and user-friendly software. The camera takes good shots too. I would recommend this phone to anybody.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Welcome, Year of the Rat.

To the people who have not done their new year resolutions on the 1.1.08, you still have the chance!

Today is also a new year for you!

Heh, I'm so lame.

Birthday Wish

This post is dedicated to my sister, kujah gajah.

It's rather overdue but just wanna wish her:


Let's plan the greatest party of all time alright?