Cream Caramel

It has been exactly a month since I've started work, and one of the things that I miss the most about my confinement leave is being able to bake whenever I want..

Made this for buka puasa today and am feeling a bit better already..

My saviour

I'm in such a stressful condition right now and this baby of mine never fails to cheer me up.

Love u so much, Adli..

Day 4 of fever

Good news.

Adli's temperature is now settling. He was still spiking on and off the first two days. His temperature shot up again to 38.8 degrees at 4.30am yesterday, even after almost 2 whole days of antibiotics.

I went through his charts-looking at his temperature pattern and ensuring that his antibiotic dosage is correct and being served ( with the nurse's permission of course!) The funny thing at this hospital is that they don't chart their patient's temperature in graph form. Hence, I had to put in additional effort to imagine his fever pattern yesterday.

A third antibiotic was started after he was seen by the paediatrian that morning. Since then, his highest temperature is only 37.5, which I take it as an improvement.

What about my own status?

I have started myself on antibiotics, and I am now feeling better. This is good as I can now directly breastfeed my baby. It was such a horrible feeling when I could only watch him cry in his cot, but I was unable to feed or cuddle him.

I hope that we will both recover from this illness soon..

Neonatal Sepsis

At day 18 post partum, my baby is currently being admitted for fever.

Am I worried? Very!

Irritability + high grade fever is not a good combination. I burst into tears when his recorded temp was 39.3 degrees in ED yesterday..

Currently his temperature is hovering around 38 degrees and will only settle after Paracetamol is served. He is no longer as fretful as before and I have found the source of fever which is me!

My temp was 38.8 degrees yesterday and currently I am not allowed to directly breastfeed my baby until my fever has settled..I am still not well as I am typing this.

My dear baby, please get well soon..

Urut

Aaah..finally my confinement period feels 'complete'.

Being pregnant for the third time is definitely different. More muscle aches and pain and feeling tired most of the time. It's probably the age factor too. Even the post-op recovery is worse compared to before. I remember back in the year 2010 after I had Aniq, people actually had to remind me to walk slowly, fearing that my Caesarean section wound would open up or something. This time around, I had no choice but to walk slowly due to the pain. After about a week post op, I could walk better and able to take care of my baby fully.

In view of my mode of delivery, I need to wait 2 weeks before I could get a full body massage and bertungku. Today I had a 2 hour and 15 minutes session, and I do hope that after a few sessions, I will feel more rejuvinated, and that my backache especially, will go away.

So far after the first session, I am satisfied with the service given by the massage therapist from Mom's Postnatal Care. She was punctual and polite. She even wore a nametag and a uniform. After the session, Aniq asked me who she was, and he thought she was a doctor! (she was wearing a nurse's uniform) I think I fell asleep during the session too!

Just fed my baby and he is now asleep. It's my turn now..

At kpj

The worst part about going for antenatal check up is the waiting.. Every week or 2 weeks,on average we have to wait for 2 hours. Bosan!

Am 39 weeks today, and still no symptoms of labour yet.. Yesterday was my last day of work, and will be off for the next 3 months..

Weight today is 71.4 kg..I have gained 23 kgs so far and have never been this heavy..

Just need to tahan n be patient..and pray that my delivery would b a smooth one..

How to take a photo with 2 toddlers

Just impossible!

Updates on Aniq

Aniq will turn 3 years old next month and I am really proud of what he has achieved so far. Well, any mum would feel that her kid is the smartest kid in the world, right?

I just enrolled him in a kindergarten-he now goes to Al-Ikhlas Pre-Tahfiz Preschool in Section 13, Shah Alam. Even after one month, I have seen tremendous improvement in him, especially in how behaves at home-ie able to play on his own, and playing less iPad/iPhone/MacBook.

The only this that disturbs me sometimes is that whenever he does something impressive, people will say 'belajar kat sekolah la tu.' It may be somewhat true, but I guess it is a common comment that people make and people do forget that it is the parents that stimulate, encourage and emphasise on certain good traits and skills that a child have..

Even before he started school, Aniq has learnt a lot of skills:
1. He could recite and recognise A-Z as well as 1-20 accurately
2. He could recite Alif Ba Ta-but still would skip some in between

3. He can spell his name, even after he just turned 2.
4. Recite prayers before he sleeps
5. Enjoys playing with jigsaw puzzles
6. Draw circles

7. Use my MacBook and watch the Mr Bean Cartoon without any assistance.
(turn it on, click on safari, click on the youtube tab and go to recently accessed videos + charge my laptop when necessary)
8. Enjoy stacking up blocks-up to 9 pieces

8. Fully toilet trained

Other updates about Aniq:
1. Still picky with his food: Only eats rice and serunding
2. Only drinks 2-3 bottles of milk/day
3. Demands for his independance: i.e want to do everything himself like getting his towel, switch off the light and fan, putting the toothpaste on his toothbrush, to pour and feed medications/vitamins himself

He can now complete a jigsaw puzzle with 27 pieces on his own

Happy to go to school-After one week of crying in school

Aniq in class-during his 1st week

Enjoys to scribble in his notebook ever since he started school

Can interact better with Adib-although they still quarrel on and off

One big question that plays in my mind is that-how am I going to manage and split my time to give enough attention to all my 3 sons? Only Allah knows..

My 2 sons

My 3rd Pregnancy

It feels weird to finally have some 'me time' once in a while. I am on MC today, Aniq is at his grandmother's and Adib is fast asleep.

I am now 35 weeks pregnant, and I do feel bad for not documenting anything on it in this blog. I suppose it's the 3rd pregnancy syndrome. I guess I'll just summarise my experience in this post..

1st trimester:

I have to say that this is wasn't a planned a pregnancy. (Even my second one wasn't either). I was just getting in the mood in doing my work at the hospital, and getting the hang of taking care of 2 kids. Being pregnant + exclusively BF + preparing for my exam was definitely too much for me  to handle. On top of that, my maid went back to Padang during that time-for 2 months, and we had to pack and shift to my dad' house. My pregnancy symptoms were also at its worst: daily vomiting, nausea, fatigue..and I had to breastfeed Adib at night. My milk supply quickly decreased and I had no time to EBM at work, coz I had to lie down and rest whenever I had the free time during office hours. It was very depressing and my stock of EBM quickly depleted to make up for my inadequate milk supply. It was just difficult to express how sad and guilty I felt at that time.

2nd trimester:

I think my early pregnancy symptoms improved at about 16 weeks. I was still feeling nauseous and tired most of the time after that but it was getting lesser as the day goes. We travelled to Padang to pick up my maid, and things became better after that. We settled down in our new home, and I even managed to do some studying during my free time-although it was only about 1/2 to one hour each time. The worse part about this trimester was that I suffered from chronic sinusitis, which caused me to have headaches and easily feeling tired. Went to see the ENT specialist, and the experience of having a scope shoved down your nose without any local anaesthesia was just horrible! Because of the sinusitis, I suffered from post nasal drip, occasional vomiting, and facial fullness even up to now..

3rd trimester:

I started feeling more tired and my weight was increasing rapidly, ie about 1 kg in a week! I had to get my glucose checked, and luckily it came back as normal. Now, I have heartburn every now and then, but still able to eat well, although my appetite was not as much compared to my second pregnancy. I have backache, especially at night, and my sleep gets disturbed every night it view of that, and getting up to pass urine at least once-twice every night. 

I've got an appointment with my O+G tomorrow, and hopefully everything will turn out fine. I have to say that by far this is my biggest baby-his estimated weight was 2.5kg at 34 weeks---even Aniq was only 1.8kg when I delivered him at 33 weeks..

I pray everyday that I will deliver my baby safely and he will turn out to be well..Insya-Allah..