I am in fear.
I usually don't worry much before I go on call. Being on-call is part of my job and I have gotten used to it and roughly know how to manage my time.
However, due to my fatigue I am unable to perform as I had intended to and I feel that I am susceptible to cause more harm than good. I can't think straight in the middle of the night and that it, if I am able to stay awake.
I can't fully depend on my house officers and it is still my sole responsibility to keep my patients well under my watch. I feel awful when I visit my patients the next morning, discovering that they have been haemodynamically unstable throughout the night. I blame myself for it.
I pray hard that I have the strength to be on my toes at all times when I'm on call tomorrow and on subsequent days. Please let me be a safe doctor.
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Dear Putri
If that vanished twin was your own, then you are a womb twin survivor. Google that and you will find my work, information, a non-profit organisation and a forum. Y(U are not alone - at least 1 in 10 people is a womb twin survivor. Althea.
dun worry, your baby will give u the strength for your call. Besides, ur baby will also bring you the luck as he does not wanna to see his mum suffer....
dun worry u r a safe doctor
Thanks dear friend for the words of encouragement. Luck was on my side on that day as my specialist was extremely helpful as she saw the difficult cases with me..And yes, my baby will always be on my side..
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